I don't see myself when I look in the mirror
I see who I should be
I don't see myself when I look in your eyes
Thank God for that

I've been playing this song on repeat all day today. These lines keep grabbing at my mind, making me think, making me consider, making me wonder, making me search. I live too much in the 'should's' and it is starting to do me in. In my weird ambivalent state it's hard to know what to do with it and how to change it but, at least I can recognize it.

It has been duly noted and will be worked on when I get out of my neither here nor there phase.