I was interviewed by the Dirty.Filthy.Princess here.

Scattered and Lost

I've been doing some spring? summer? fall? (who knows!) serious cleaning. I am being much tougher than I have been in the past and getting rid of a lot of stuff including clothing and shoes.

I like stuff. I like things that hold stuff. I have trunks, plastic containers, boxes and other storage thingamajig's and have to go through those as well as get rid of some of them. I am also a little sentimental and so have been rereading letters and weeding through those, getting rid of some inherited stuff that really will never see the light of day and recycling things like mad.

In this purge I have gone through a trunk that contained hopes. I would not describe myself a a hopeful person now but it turns out that I once was. In this trunk I had things that I was going to have in my first house, when I had a real house, with my future husband. I have been keeping these things for a long, long time and now I have to get rid of them. They are crushing my soul.

They remind me of things never had and things I don't have any hope left for. I need to prepare for less room as I get older and therefore I should have less stuff. People will tell me not to give up but I am tired of looking for the positive, the possibility, the hope. It hurts.

i am lonely

I need to make room for all the cats I will have to have to at least have people notice me.

You can only guess what my initial reaction was to this.
Now I kind of like it.
Surprising and not...as I like a little dark.

You are Death

Change, Transformation, Alteration.

People fear this card, but if you want to change your life, this is one of the
best indicators for it. Whatever happens, life will be different. Yes, the Death card can signal a death in the right circumstances (a question about a very sick or old relative, for example), but unlike its dramatic presentation in the movies, the Death card is far more likely to signal transformation, passage, change. Scorpio, the sign of this card, has three forms: scorpion, serpent, eagle. The Death card indicates this transition from lower to higher to highest. This is a card of humility, and it may mean you have been brought low, but only so that you can then go higher than ever before. Death "humbles" all, but it also "exults." Always keep in mind that on this card of darkness there is featured a sunrise as well. You could be ready for a change.

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