
And of course I have family and friends but that's not what I mean...
Boy am I a saddo. But how to get a life? How to get what I want? I do not know. I have taken classes that interest me; all women. I go to concerts on my own: never seem to speak to anyone. Go to galleries, events, conferences etc.: errr...nothing. I do not know! So far I haven't tried the internet dating thing. Maybe that should be next?
Ack! I sound like a pathetic loser!! Mind I've just imbibed a bit o' the al-key-hall and this is the year I have found the effect of it. Tipsy, tipsy me! Drownding my sorrows? Not really. Maybe? Nah. Just tired of it all and unsure of wht steps to take. I am scared and tired and getting older bu the moment and just want someone to love me; someone that I love back.
Bah. I AM a whiner. Yuck. I hate it. Crap. What to do, what to do....